Crossroads incoming

I’m really not good at keeping a post schedule. The truth is, just getting through each day drains me to the point where I just drift when I am not working or nobody needs me for anything.

I will try to break that cycle and having thought about this for a long time, it has to start with getting my brain as “balanced” as it can be. So, to that end I went back to the doctors to discuss things. We agreed to up my dosage and I have now been on the increased does for 2 days. Too early to tell but also, I think this is the last chance for me. This, after all, is the highest dose I can go on. If this doesn’t work, I am honestly considering giving up the medication route altogether. I have tried every med that is available and although I have had some successes in the past, it has never lasted.

It may be time soon to go it alone so to speak. For better or worse. If I cannot fix myself after that then… I guess I’ll decide if the time comes.