I have emerged… again.

Wow it has been quite a long time since I posted. It is funny and a little disturbing how fast time can slip by. Do you ever get that what I think may be called decision paralysis? Not sure if that is the right term or even if it is a real term. However, the best way I can describe it is when you have some free time, and you want to make the most of it. You want to maximise the efficiency of the time and go through all the things you want to achieve only to get locked in a cycle of what to do first and when ending up achieving hardly anything by the end of the free time.

I often find myself left with a few unfinished or pending ideas all laying there in a pile. Hating myself for it and then withdraw from it all. If you combine that with bouts of depression and my inherent anxious nature it is a recipe for disaster.

Anyway from today I set out to do at least one thing per day from my small tasks queue and to work on one project at a time. That last one will be hard as my mind jumps between ideas sometimes too fast. So many ideas so little time, eh? Well, I achieved both today. The small task was just to sort out and make some sense out of my workbench. The chaos was real! Which then, neatly led into the project I have been wanting to start for a while. That being experimenting with the Arduino board and components stash that I have accumulated. No goal in mind but to understand how to code for it and interface with various components.

Finally, I went for a walk today. Now some people reading this might say “Wow, you went for a walk. Not much of an achievement!” To me though, it was big. I feel self-conscious and for some reason my anxiety spikes quite a bit when outside around people. I do not think I was always this way. At least not to this degree. So yes, to me it was a win. Good for my mind and, in the long term, good for my body too.